i m such an idiot...

Would u call off a date with a hot chic just becuz u sense 'not much' enthusiasm in her?

I WOULD... OMG... I M SUCH A PATHETIC LOSER.... DAMN!!!

Shawn is a fighter

Shawn is the head of the lion in leo... Borned on the 23rd of July for a reason... As he is a fighter, n he shall never bow down to miseries...

Hehe.. Shawnie is back... After going thru so much miseries in life for the past 3 months... Finally, he learnt the most important lesson of the day... For the more troubles n miseries he has to face, the stronger he will fight back.. N he shall not give up... So, pour more miseries on him as he need more of those to fuel his desire to do even better...

Last sem, i only managed 2Ds n 2Ps... To me, tat sux... I will do even better this time...

To me right now, i realize tat God is forever good to me... He never just gives me the thing i asked for... He gives me more than I could ever imagine... For the first sem, shawnie is lost, n he found someone to fueled him for sem1... N now, for the second sem, the miseries from tat particular someone will fueled him once again to do even better...

Evrything alwiz happen for a reason, i know for sure that the reason things is happening around me is just to make me become so much better... Thank U Lord for loving me so much...

Now, i dare say... I din lose anything in this... Cuz deep down, u know urself that u lost the most beautiful thing tat cud ever happen to ur life... :)

"THE MORE TROUBLE THERE IS, THE STRONGER SHAWNIE SHALL FIGHT"

My be-earlied bday pressie...

Went to chadstone with Grace and Dennis ystrdy... Got myself a be-earlied bday present... Haha, the new line of Polo T... the three horses ed...































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p/s : Happy birthday my beloved couzy Michelle... n my bemissed ka jei in Hawaii, Li Mei... mwah mwah mwah...

So near yet so far...

Had a great dream ystrdy morning, dreamt tat i was back home, enjoying my time with my mum, my sis n my bestest buddies... Celebrating my bday... fuh... was it brilliant...

Woke up at abt 2pm, have a talk with my sis.. My sis asked what i want for my bday... I told her that i wanna go home for the weekend to celebrate my bday... Haha, she said ok... N she will support me financially... N she said that she will do it at all cost... haha... to suprise mum... Hehe.. I guess random-ness n the yeng-ness is in our blood afterall... I just love my sis... Haha, i love tim too... He was so happy to hear me going home that he offered to pick me up from KLIA straight away... Brotherhood to the max...

I grabbed my passport... Called evry1 that i know in melbourne asking if there's any travel agent that they r aware of, i went to STA travel... BUt only to find that there's ticket from Melb-KL but return tick is only available till mid of August... Sigh...

I listed 5 reasons for me to go home :
1. My bday
2. My sis wans to c me
3. To suprise mum
4. I am not having such a great time in melb
5. I am just totally YENG

Haha.. Ended up, i realize i cant b going back... N yet, my frens in melb think that i m... Never bother telling them tat i m in melb anyway... Haha, its good to have a break from them... As too much things had happened lately... They just wun belief the fact tat i m just not emo-ing.. N i laZ to explain to them either... Just let them think tat i m actually back in KL... I reckon wud b a good thing... Mayb ppl think i m stupid or silly... But i dun care...

Btw, i also fell sick... Having sorethroat, fever n headache... N so did Ah Kei... Apparently, we suffered the same sickness at the same time... Wonder wuts the chemistry between us... Haha... Neway, enuff said.. Nitesss

p/s : stop asking me abt the previous blogs peeps... its signed sealed delivered... i just wanna blast everything to my blog... for no apparent reason... and no apparent meaning to cause any types of unnecessary inconveniences.... thank you... lmao

Ok ok.. new beginning... NO.. NO more pathetic blogs..

New life has begun... Memories are best kept as memories...

Went to velvet for clubbing last friday... It was one of my best this year... Haha... Besides not having any1 seriously drunk or nose bleeding... so on so forth... The best thing happened was really the presence of Ah Kei... Haha... Totally suprised tat she would come... She told me this was way way much better than clubs in Penang... Penang is lala clubs wei... Neway, plenty of things happened that nite... Haha... I was all over protecting her... It was really fun... Looking her enjoying herself... Honestly, this is the first time i actually intro a fren to clubbing... I felt so so special... The party ended early for me n Ah Kei... We then went to Chapellis for a slice of Mixed Berry Cheesecake plus one latte n one cappucino... Haha.. Let the pics speak for themselves...















This is Ah Kei n me...















Happy Yiki, Vincent, Me n Ah kei....















This is the pic i like the most... But hmm... Keep evrything back into ur pants... She's hot (tat night) i must admit... But me n her are only good frens... Hmm... Nothing more... Ehem...

Haha, neway, there was also Daniel, Serene, Celine (I dunno if i spelled it right), Woo Hsien, Henry, Audrey, Pak Lun, Swee Hoe... Plus some ppl tat i dun remember their names... Hmm, evryone tot i was emo... N i was actually trying to prove something tat nite.. But honestly, i heck care wut evryone thinks... I know i m NOT... DEFO!!!!

"You thought you could change someone, the truth is, you changed yourself" - Yiki 2007

Currently listening to : Nelly Furtado - All Good Things (Come to an end)

I alwiz wanted to continue blogging... but after so long of not doing it... its been like 7 months of so since my last meaningful post... i guess.. too much had happened in recent times... this 7 months was not anything close to my expectations.. as i completed my undergrad and evrything.. as usual, i returned to msia... deciding on where my future lies... i decided to come back to melbourne for another 1 n a half years of study.. But the whole equation of coming back to melbourne was more of weighted to personal reasons rather than wanting to serious study... not tat i m not serious.. but i think, i shouldn't lie to my blog.. i honestly came back more on personal reasons... more to the reason of me not wanting to kick start my 30 years plus of career.. But undoubtedly, my choice of course and the effort that i put in this sem was undoubtedly better than what i normally do... so i have no regrets with my studies...

However, the other reasons and things tat i wud like to c happening never came close to happening as my predictions went all wrong... Things i didn't assume occuring occured instead.. The most significant happening i guess wud be meeting someone (not liking to put names, lets call her Anony, and yes she's a girl)... After 22 years of ups and downs in life.. i thought i wud have learnt enuff to be strong enuff to face plentiful of circumstances.. but in dealing with Anony, i failed.. or should i say miserably... I lost myself so badly... Did so many gay things... Which i am so distraught to even mention it.. But my conclusion is, in this scenario.. plenty of things sided on the bad side... One good thing abt evrything is tat i found myself back to the arms of God... Nevertheless, i went back to Hope Melbourne Church... which is not my style at all.. I went back seeking God's help... Cuz thru out this period.. It was HIM that has given me so much courage and strength... i guess... thru out this period, fear was in my mind afterall... it was a totally new definition of fear to me... the fear tat she said she was once feared of...

I really do not know how the ending is going to be... probably there's no good in knowing... i thinki i write a good chinese phrase myself.. "我知道到最後我也是不會得到你的愛。。 如果傻傻的留下。。 為何不要瀟灑的離開。。。"... things i wud say went pretty bad... from losing myself... n finding myself in so much fear... finding myself not belonging to me... n yet i have to stand firm to protect evryone else... protecting so many ppl which i wud say their problems has so least to do with me... I found myself being the center of evrything.... seems to me as thou... My energy was draint by more than myself... n yet... i m struggling with my own problems as well... who m i to blame...

I got my mum n sis overly worried about this.. I know i shudn't have... It is becuz... they r the only person in this world that i can count n depend on... Becoming the youngest in the family was really a huge plus plus.. haha... so i must really thank them n God for giving them to me... Mum n sis... i really feel like coming home from this cold winter of melbourne.. but i guess... I cant be running away from such problems... after overcoming this, i belief my life will be much more stronger to serve God...

Today, church was talking abt Steward... Talking abt how to serve God... I found myself losing faith and i m not as much as willing to serve God anymore... I must apologize... I guess i need the breakthru prayers just now... I din get any from the cg leaders but i did prayed for it myself... N now i guess God is helping me once again... giving me the strength for everything... N now i m ready to serve again... Thank the living God...

To conclude this, i guess all good things really have to come to an end... But in this case, i really can say i enjoyed a lot thru out the procedures... No doubt i have plenty of downs as well... But it was really great when the happy things occured... The best i wud say was on her bday... hehe.. thank u for everything... i will b there till the 27th ya... tats the day when both our exams end...

p/s : thanks Steven n Christian for prayers of strength for my last paper this coming wednesday.. really needed it... hehe.. i shall work hard... as i belief... God only help those that help themselves.... Thanks the Almighty God... n oh ya.. thanx Bridget too...

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